Just wanting to be alone
even alone is still with myself.
sadness engulfing,
sometimes still glimpses,
i try to dig to find them
they don't want anything
to do with me.
the words form but they
slip away
i know you will not hear.
in my head, my good friend,
not always loyal.
just wanting to be alone
without a brain
even alone is still with myself
desperately crawling away
as i repel
the last of
my own company

i wake up
next to you
and my life
can begin
think i was born
to hold on to you
feels like infinity
to cling on to you
i will kiss
every cell of your body
i love
every hair on your head
now i know
why i waited
all my life
for something
so good
as you

daylight is lighter
being awake
seems nicer
now that
you are here
i wanted to say
thank you
for opening up
the curtains
you make me
want to be
who i was
when i was
myself
and i want
to be
the best
for you
i want
to swing
from the branches
of your soul
you have
touched me
somewhere so deep
i will never
be able to
pick you out
with my
fingernails
you are
the ceiling
and i am
forever underneath you
living because
now i can

when your spine hurts
i will
be there
to kiss you
at the root
of the pain
when you trip
on the stairs
i will throw myself
ten times as hard
if i'm not loved
by you
i never want
to be loved again
when your spine hurts
i will
cut mine
and wrap it for you
you've made me
so grateful
to be happy
happy to be
alive again
when your spine hurts
i will be there
to cradle you
today and tomorrow
into forever

i'm gonna start writing in here cos having a tumblr is really lame. sometimes i'll type things out that i've written down but i don't intend on anyone caring about this stuff. hopefully i'll write one thing every day and see where i am in a year